4 Confessions of a First-Timer Microdosing Psilocybin Magic Mushrooms…
1. I was afraid I would somehow get high.
“Is this going to make me high?”
This was my first question when I was offered a microdose of psilocybin by my colleague.
I had heard of microdosing but knew very little about it.
He knew I’d been struggling with interconnectedness and had been having symptoms of anxiety recently: restlessness, lack of focus, and generally worrying too much about things that probably weren’t worthy of more than a second thought.
I was increasingly finding myself stuck in my head while spending time with my husband and children. Circumstances were starting to affect my mood far more than I liked and I was having difficulty finding my equilibrium.
“No, it’s not anywhere near enough. It’s about one tenth of a light dose of that kind. You’re not going to feel high at all, but you are going to feel good.”
I hesitated. This is the stuff of college parties, I reminisced, and something I hadn’t experimented with in nearly 12 years. The last time I tried magic mushrooms it was nothing short of euphoric and a pretty crazy night followed, but these days, I’m not game for that.
My rational mind interrupted and stopped my spiral down memory lane and told me: it’s a sub-perceptual amount, so tiny you might not notice anything really. You don’t have to work today. It’s going to be okay.
He took out a small scale and measured out a very small dose of “magic mushrooms” from a tiny jar. Magic mushrooms. The words echoed in my mind and I have to admit I felt like a bit of a rebel as I watched him dissolve and stir the powder into my hot chocolate. We continued chatting and I drank my mushrooms.
2. It feels good, really good.
I half expected it to hit me all at once, but it didn’t.
I felt uplifted gradually and happy in a balanced way.
Slowly and steadily I felt increasingly vibrant and less stressed.
Conversation flowed with more ease and I felt more engaged as the background noise that frequently plays in the back of my head (to-do lists, wondering what to cook for supper, trying to remember what I needed to buy at the grocery store) faded away.
If there was an overarching theme to how I felt in the first few hours after microdosing, it was definitely feeling more focused and connected to my life and my self.
On my way home I was meditating on my relationships with my family and the affection I have for them was much more intense than when I typically reflect on them.
As I walked through the door my sense of gratitude for them was much stronger than usual too. Hugs and physical interaction felt way better. I sensed more between us than usual and it felt really good.
3. The effects were surprising.
With such a small dose I expected the benefits I was experiencing to rapidly dissipate but they endured throughout the day. When I returned home I began working on a project and found myself lost in the task, able to concentrate with ease while my creativity flowed.
Even if I am enjoying a task, I typically find myself fidgeting and even procrastinating but I was so calm and relaxed. I finished my project with remarkable efficiency.
This state of calm and focus extended to the afternoon chaos.
Where are all the parents of school-aged children at?
When our kids arrived home from school, it was the normal scene:
- backpacks on the floor
- lunch kits opened while leftovers are consumed over half the house
- endless chatting about their days and antics of their friends
- requests for more snacks, and then,
- an impromptu recorder concert featuring every song learned over the last month
I love our kids. They make me happier than any people on this planet. But let me tell you, sometimes the struggle is real when they get home from school.
Having time together at home is wonderful but after a long day of work or errands or chores or volunteer obligations, sometimes it is really hard not to tune them out a little (or a lot). I’m sure many of you can relate.
I matched the energy of my kids effortlessly after microdosing.
I was focused on them and only them. The recorder concert, which would normally have made my left eye twitch and caused a massive headache akin to what I would imagine a brain aneurysm feels like, didn’t even phase me and I actually enjoyed my child’s display of new-found talent. I was shocked I felt so relaxed hours after microdosing.
4. I have decided to keep microdosing as a wellness tool.
Life happens. Stress, struggles, mental roadblocks, feeling apathetic or like you are just meeting deadlines and jumping from one task to another are things we all experience. These feelings can really hinder the amount of enjoyment we get from our everyday lives.
Shouldn’t most of our enjoyment come from the things we do daily?
How often do we struggle to appreciate our every days?
Microdosing makes me feel more connection to the things and people I love and doesn’t leave me feeling empty or depleted.
It makes me feel more perceptive, in alignment and in tune with my life, making it an easy wellness solution for me. I could carry on with my day and do me the way I do me. There was nothing weird about it. I felt so damn good.
There is a lot of research being conducted that demonstrates the safety and efficacy of microdosing regimens with psilocybin. John Hopkins University, Harvard and Imperial College London are just a few of the places actively engaged in studying psilocybin and the conclusions they are making demonstrate a promising future for mushrooms as medicine.
Microdosing with psilocybin is natural and I feel so much better when I microdose than I do when I turn to my other vices during times of stress, but that’s a confession for another time.
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